I try not to talk about it too much. Who wants to hear only about negativity and complaints? I try to not talk about the fact that I had to resign from a great government job that I had for 18 years. Now I am on disability; it is my only income. I try to not talk about how I lost probably the only house I will ever own. I am now renting in a bad neighborhood. There are no other landlords willing to give me a chance due to my horrible credit. Social media has become my main communication tool since I do not get out very often. I try to only post about when I am having a good day or if I am not having one; I post about other random things. I try to not post about how much I miss doing \u201cnormal people\u201d things: going to work, getting into my car to drive somewhere without the fear of getting the weird, surreal, dream-like feeling that scares the heck out of me, or not feeling so weak that I cannot even get out of bed to take my daughter to school. I try to not post about how I sometimes even feel a little resentful of people who some would say have a \u201creal\u201d illness. I try to not post about how the guilt I feel far outweighs any physical pain I may be going through. I really do try.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Humans of ME\/CFS I try not to talk about it too much. Who wants to hear only about negativity and complaints? I try to not talk about the fact that I had to resign from a great government job that I had for 18 years. Now I am on disability; it is my only income. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":638,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"spay_email":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-content\/uploads\/2020\/07\/mary_c.png","_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/655"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=655"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/655\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/638"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=655"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=655"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/humansofchronicillness.org\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=655"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}